It’s 2010.

I’m already by myself.

The last day of the decade passed in a strange way.  I worked an early shift (8:45-1) and dealt with the rudest customers of the year.  About an hour into my shift I turned to had a customer his coffee and my left eye went limp.  I don’t really have any other way to explain it.  I felt very light headed and weak, I began to shake as I got a little nervous as to what was going on.  It lasted a few minutes as I tried to focus myself and keep conscious.  It went away finally and I went back to work.  All the rest of the day (even now) I’ve felt a little unbalanced and out of it.  The only explanation I can muster for the problem is stress or anxiety.  The last couple weeks have been incredibly difficult for me, trying to decipher the reason for all the hostility and not really understanding as all I am is a caring/loving person.  It’s really been getting to me and last night was the worst of it so all day I was a little beat from that as it was.

Anyway, 2009 was incredible. I just hope 2010 can hold a candle to it.

Home Feels Like Home

We decorated today.

Today, We Ate Turkey

Thanksgiving came and went like every year. There was a turkey. There were side dishes. There was dessert. Being home has been therapeutic to say the least. With this sinus infection 85% behind me I have my plans set to begin the job hunt and beat it to the ground. Apple has yet to call…

The biggest bummer of the year’s thanksgiving festivities was the absence of Shay and her family. Holidays are a time for family and, well, they’ve quickly become part of mine. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

New Book

Through Painted Deserts.

Just finished up Invisible Monsters yesterday on the train ride home and decided I’d take a little different route for my next novel.  So far…I’m hooked.

My Poor Lady

After I wrote last night about coming home some things happened.  Shay was texting me about a stomach pain that was unbearable and after a couple hours it ended up she was taken to the emergency room at 4 am.  Through multiple tests and an MRI they still can’t figure out what is wrong…I visited her and she was miserable.  If only I wasn’t this sick at the same time…I need to be there for her…They are keeping her overnight now and hopefully will know the problem tomorrow morning.

I just want her here.

The Last Rebellion

Today was the last show of the last tour of the year. I can’t believe how much this year has changed the way I live.

It was realy great becoming friends with all the bands on this tour. Some of the most sincere group of dudes I’ve ever met. Hopefully the start of some lasting friendships.

Tonight we sleep. Tomorrow we drive. Shay will be mine.

Nowhere Nevada

Being sick has alway sucked. Being sick on the road? A whole new realm of suck. I can’t sleep in the van. I keep feeling like I’m gonna puke. Shay must have fallen asleep.

Last show tomorrow. Might push me over the edge into being more than sick.

Reno, NV

Excuse the gap in posts. Nevada has been unkind to me once again.

The previous post started it all. We were driving from Twin Falls to Reno to get to our hotel when half way there we noticed smoke coming from the wheel well of the trailer. We pulled over to realize the axle was bent to where the wheels were rubbing against the trailer wall…

A usless tow truck, cop, and $175 later we pulled off at a walmart to unload and wait for ACA and The Wedding to come help us out. Brian ended up renting us a U Haul truck that barely fit all the gear. Five hours later we left, leaving the beat up trailer in the parking lot, and arrived in Reno around 11.

The next day I woke up with a really scratchy throat and have felt pretty sick ever since. Luckily we’ve had a room at the Sands hotel so I could relax and all but I want nothing more than to just go home. I’m really looking forward to the time off.

Tomorrow is the first of the two last shows on this tour. Hopefully we’ll go out with a bang.

All Good Things Don’t Happen

This happened today. It will be properly accounted for at a later time. I am sick and tired.

Good night November 16.

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